Long story short: I was REALLY sent into a depression because now I was conflicted. It's been dying off since then and we are still friends but a little more distant.ĭuring the same time I began having these feelings for one of the girls, I began to get VERY strong feelings for my best friend, the GUY. See, she used to like me but I wasn't sure if she still did. After months of gawking over this girl and spiraling into depression, I finally talked to her about it. She is so awesome, the best girl at the school actually, in my view.īut here comes the rough part. I thought about her constantly and she would actually get me really depressed at times. Well, about 7-8 months ago I began to fall for the other girl in our group. I helped him through his feelings and, after making it blatantly obvious to her, was rejected pretty bad. For months, she was his entire world really but couldn't say anything. Since then, we have been the greatest of friends.Ī year ago my best friend started falling for one of the girls in our group. Oh, and the group is comprised of me, my best friend (male) who I have been best friends with since elementary, and two girls we met in 9th grade. We are also the four smartest, best performing students in our school (we're all seniors) which is probably why we clicked so well because we could relate to each other. I mean, we are inseparable almost, but we really keep our private lives to ourselves. I really only have a small group of three REALLY good friends. Sometimes it is 50/50 though, it's so dynamic and confusing. This separation never really bothered me either. I guess deep down I have known that I wasn't completely straight, but my gay feelings were so insignificant, maybe 20% the rest, girls. It's hard to put a time frame on all this. I can already tell this is going to be a long post, so bear with me but I feel like it's time I did what so many others have as well that is, tell my story. For a while now I have been coming to this website, reading other's "straight best friend" stories, looking for some guidance.